Something I have to forgive myself for? I am sure there are about a million things for which I need forgiveness, if not from myself, then from other people. What sticks out for me is my inability to stay in touch with people the way I should.
I get so stuck in my own little world that in the midst of everything I forget to write, call or get off my butt and actually go see people. In some ways it is more difficult because I am thousands of kilometres away from my family and the time difference means that by the time I am ready to give someone a call after the kids are in bed it is well past midnight. It isn’t that I don’t think about people, I really do, but life gets in the way.
Of course it isn’t only family that suffer from my calling/writing neglect, it is people that I would dearly love to see more often, but I have lost touch. I had a few teachers on various school staffs that I really clicked with. I really wish that after I left the Muslim school that I made more of an effort to keep in touch with Fran and Suzanne for instance. It has been about 5 years since I have seen either of them, and since I am not teaching at the moment I may not have anything in common with them anymore, but it would be nice to know.
In all these relationships there are the other people to consider as well. Not only have I lost touch with them, or I do not call as often as I should, maybe the opposite is also true. Maybe I need to forgive myself for not being as good a communicator as I feel I should be, and just try to do better. One step at a time as they say.
With that I am going to do a few things:
1: Go out to dinner tonight with some friends from Aidan’s preschool days. We have been trying to get together with the kids and sometimes just the moms. It is a good first step.
2: Call Tomer and Carla and set up a games night soon. They have been terrific friends and they deserve a home cooked meal and some board games for all they have helped us with this last year.
3: Sent out Christmas cards this year. I am actually getting them finished and sent to me soon. I hope to send them out to family and friends by the second week of December.
4: Write a tacky, but maybe kind of cool, Christmas letter. You know the one with some random facts about what has been happening in our lives over the last year. Maybe I can jump start some old relationships.
Am I the only one that feels this out of touch in a time where we are plugged in all the time? Do your real life relationships suffer?
Day 01: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02: Something you love about yourself.
Day 03: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. )
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 : What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28:What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself