Guilty and Sleep Deprived . . . Again

I sometimes wonder if I have offended the sleep gods/goddesses somehow.  I love both my children but the night wakings and early morning wakings are starting to really take their toll.

I envy my husband his ability to go back to sleep in an instant, but I think if we actually had the room he would be sleeping in a different room until the sleep train comes back into our house.  Then I might not feel so guilty about having  him take the boys from about 5:30 am until he leaves for work.  The last couple of nights/days there was no way I was going to be able to cope with the day if I didn’t get that small window of sleep time from 6 to 8.

Last night was a horrible night.  I am not sure why, but Quinlan had a bad night and to make matters worse, when I finally got to sleep after the 1:30 ish wake up, I woke with sinus problems folled by a horrific case of insomnia.  There is nothing like not being able to get to sleep when you know at least one of your children will be waking soon.  I figure I got about around 3 and a half hours sleep all told last night.  Let me just say it is not enough.

At least I know I am not the only one who is the walking dead lately.

3 comments to Guilty and Sleep Deprived . . . Again

  • Nana

    God give you strength! I know that one can make it through without killing ones kids from experience but that does not help right now. I also know how much having someone to give you a little break can help. Your dad spent many nights walking for hours in the bitter cold with you in the baby backpack. If I had not had the sleep from those hours I don’t know how I would have survived the weeks when he was not home. A few months from now you will be able to laugh at how much parents survive- till the next trial. lol

  • I read the above comment. It sounds like you were a tough baby too in the sleep department.

    That sucks that your kids are not great sleepers. I can’t deal with lack of sleep very well at all. When K had all of his sleep issues I read every book and web forum out there to try to find a solution.

    I know how you feel about falling back to sleep when the kids wake you up. When the kids wake in the night I end up lying in bed stressing over how long I have until they wake up again and since I can’t shut my mind down I stay up the whole night! Keith, on the other hand, rarely wakes up in the first place.

    Sending strength!
    .-= Marilyn´s last blog ..Passages =-.

  • I hope that things are looking up for you soon. The sleep deprivation is awful. And I also reach this point where I’m so tired I can’t even sleep anymore. Doubly awful. It’s just lucky that children are cute, is all I know for sure.
    .-= Amber´s last blog ..Little Person =-.