I have written about my struggles with body image on this blog. One of the things that makes my stuggle with body image harder is how clothes are geared towards body types that don’t have much curve to them.
I used to think that I have nice legs. This year all I am finding are boots that shout “Hey fat girl, what the hell are you thinking? Girls with calves as fat as yours are don’t deserve pretty boots.” I am getting pretty discouraged.
Every once in a while I start to think that maybe I have a nice rack, until I actually try to get a coat that zippers over them without having sleeves that are 6 inches too long.
I understand that it is not me and that it is the clothes, but there comes a point when you have to be able to do something. I should be able to find a nice warm ski jacket that I can actually ski in. It shouldn’t have taken me so long to find a pair of ski pants that actually fit. Because you know, fat people don’t exercise or go out for sports, because, well you know, they are fat! This is what clothiers tell us all the time.
When I go to a lingerie store to find a bra, (even ones that are supposed to be for plus sized people) I have a very hard time finding my size. The one store I have found with my size is almost always sold out of the styles they bring in in my size. Why? Because I am not the only one who has trouble finding bras that fit.
I am starting to think that the rest of the words in my head are not getting out on paper because they are coming off as mean, and that is not what I wanted. So I have deleted a few paragraphs. I was a little upset about a new group blog about body image. It seemed to me that while the blog purported to be about Curvy Girls, they didn’t have anyone anywhere near my size. I wanted to make sure before I got my knickers in a twist. I have read a number of the posts, and while I still think they need more women that are bigger and have more problems with actually finding clothes that fit, the posts that I read were good.
I guess what I really need is to get off my butt and put myself out there more. Maybe instead of worrying that a new group blog doesn’t have enough bigger curvy girls, maybe I offer to be one. Who knows, they might actually want someone like me, after all, I am adorable, right?