I decided that on the days that I am having a hard time getting the creative juices flowing I will use the 30 Days of Truth meme. I am not sure where it first surface but all the cool kids are playing along. Each day you are supposed to take a prompt and write a post about said prompt.
Day 01: Something you hate about yourself.
Something I hate, well dislike, about myself is my body image. I really wish I felt better about how I look and what type of body I have. I try really hard to be positive about how I look, but some times is is a very hard prospect.
I am a curvy sort of woman. I have a big bosom and this has always made me feel like I am bigger than I actually am. Inside I am a slim woman with a B cup, perky breasts, flat stomach, nice hair, zit free face and a dazzling smile. I sometimes am surprised at how large a person I really am. I am not built to be a fashionable woman, at least not in Vancouver.
I don’t like that I feel this way about my body. I can walk forever, I am not too bad on a bike and I can run after my very fast two year old. I am pretty sure that my husband think I am pretty, and I have never heard him complain about the size of my breasts. I know that my boys love me and that it doesn’t occur to them that I am a fat girl.
I hate that sometimes I feel ugly. I hope that my boys don’t know that I feel that way. I don’t want them to ever feel like they are skinny enough, or whatever enough. I want them to stay oblivious to what society thinks is beautiful. I want them to feel comfortable with their bodies. I want them to be confident. I want me to be confident and comfortable. Maybe I need to have a boudoir session like one of my favourite bloggers.
I want to learn to love my body no matter what it looks like.
Day 02: Something you love about yourself.
Day 03: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. )
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 : What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28:What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself